Photographs by Kriti Mamgain.

The truth is that we are all chasing ideas. Those ideas are defined yet vague. We don’t know what we want but we know what we want. We are confused because we are chasing ideas. We anticipate the goal, what we usually forget to anticipate is the journey.

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This journey is the protagonist of our story, the goal is the climax. And from personal experience, this journey is pretty rough. Now the goal could be a career goal, a family goal or a goal to find happiness or all of them.

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Ever since I started this blog, I have been in a constant state of dissatisfaction. What am I doing? What is going on? Why is the readership not increasing? Am I going wrong somewhere? How are other blogs doing so well and mine isn’t? Why are followers increasing at such a slow pace? Is the blog good enough? Am I good enough? Should I shut it down?

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I tried to be a lot of things, tried to portray a certain kind of an image, made a lot of changes and nothing worked. I kept getting dissatisfied further. I just couldn’t figure out why this blog wasn’t working. I was tired and I didn’t enjoy the blog anymore.

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After a little break, I decided to only do those things that make blogging a happy experience for me. I figured that all I’m going to do is make sure that this blog is a just representation of me. That’s all.

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The blog still doesn’t have too many followers, it still is unable to sustain itself, and I’m sure there is a lot that is wrong with it. But at least I’m being honest and the fact that you are reading this is good enough for me.

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I’ll just do what I do best and if that works then the idea that I’m chasing will come true on my terms.

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Blue and gold is an incredible combination and reminds me of weddings. These earrings are from Kerala and they are super glamorous. I felt like a million bucks. This is a simple outfit with loud accessories because it’s all about the balance.

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My last thoughts – I should have ironed the shirt.

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